February 12, 2003

I'm an arrogant ass

In the last few months, I've been told by three or four people that I'm very arrogant. Contrary to what I thought most people would do after being confronted with an "accusation" (or observation, IMHO) of arrogance, I fully admitted to it and was almost proud of my arrogance.

Then I asked myself "Why shouldn't I be?"? I really like who I am, I honestly believe that I do good, and I really try hard to succeed and make myself better off while not leaving a dangerous wake behind me. If you're proud of yourself and don't believe that pride is a "sin", then why hide yourself and your accomplishments and talents?

When I'm wrong and the facts are proven, I tend to bite the bullet, apologize, and learn from the experience. I do make mistakes, I do change my mind, I do get things mixed up, and that's that.

When I'm right, I usually push forward with whatever I'm thinking, doing, or talking about. When someone disagrees or disputes, it usually leads into a debate, and sometimes, an argument. The problem is that the debate or argument is frequently about my supposed arrogance and not so much about the actual topic at hand. This leads me to believe that maybe I'm not quite "wrong" about what I know or in the way I think and act, but maybe it's just that those around me are just sick of not coming to conclusions as fast as I do on a wide variety of topics.

I found an entry on some web log where they were commenting on how most debate ends up being similar to religious debate, and that nobody ever gets anywhere in the end, other than feeling frustrated and disillusioned. I think otherwise. Debate leads to mental muscle flexing, which leads you to form new ideas, or incorporate other peoples' thoughts into your own, and vice versa. Just as muscles get sore after a workout, debate and argument can do the same for one's spirit.

One fellow named Paul popped up and said "it's all verbal masturbation to me. blogs, comments, online debates, metafilter, etc.".

I partially agree. Comments and online debates are intercourse.

intercourse n 1: communication between individuals 2: the act of sexual procreation between a man and a woman; the man's penis is inserted into the woman's vagina and excited until orgasm and ejaculation occur.

This arrogant blog of mine is verbal masturbation.

Posted by gav at February 12, 2003 03:28 AM
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